How much could I have meant to you?
How can I be any different , to you who were looking for a replacement?
How stupid of me to have hoped it was more!
I have lost a thousand times in the past to your memories of her,
You complained I didn't have time for us,
I was in a battle with someone I've never met,
I was at war with myself,
Why didn't you save me from this nightmare?
I have lost yet again to your past who has become your present,
I realize now,
I lost that battle,
I lost the war,
I lost you,
I lost to the memories of your past and the reality of your future.
